Instead of knocking on doors
I’m standing here and observing
I’m looking around to see what happens
I’m waiting what I feel.
This is what I see.
One door is closed shut
and does not call for me anymore
but I briefly look at it with affectionate memories.
One door that had been open
was closed as quickly as it had opened
I knocked again and now it is open half-way
I have been standing on the threshold
but have turned my back at it already
ready to leave, when I’m ready.
Yet another one had been standing open for a while
was pushed at me by life itsself
I opened it myself
I’ve been going in and out of it ever since
but have never realized what I’d been doing
trusting instinctively.
This is what it feels like
to stop standing in front of closed doors
to take a step back
to trust with an open heart.
Cara`s Melody 