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How giving up a calendar has made me do more sports (and had other benefits)

Sometime in the summer break, I forgot to update my super old-fashioned and dearly beloved paper calendar. When I realized that after a few weeks, I could not believe it. How could I have forgotten?

I used to put everything in there and carry it everywhere. Birthdays, the regular dentist/ gyn appointments, dinner with friends, when to go to the gym, when to go dancing, school events and times I went home, even my period and silly little stuff like dates (numbered, I kid you not) and programmed walks outside.

On the right side there was always an empty space for my to-do lists – things like “bring trash out“ or “wash car“ or “file your bills asap“. Of course, I never got around to doing them all, being the queen of procrastinating in some areas, so this lovely to-do list had to be updated weekly: cross out or tick things I somehow had managed to do, write the others on the next list (only to be ignored again… 😉 ). Now I find myself wondering how much time and effort I put in this little paperback calendar which I usually also filled with some quotes I liked.

Anyways. When I noticed the absence of this tool that controlled my time, I wondered: could I live without it? I decided to try – that was in September.

Taking stock now, I have realized I am busier than before even though I do not have my whole week/ life/ time planned out. Somehow I have more spontaneous meets with friends. After school I sometimes went for drinks or dinner with colleagues on a whim. To my surprise, even though I do not check anymore that I train at least two times a week, most weeks I have been at the gym three times! How the hell has that happened? I even chatted with more people there, coz I did not have a schedule to adhere to and be somewhere by a certain time. Before, long weekends with no plans, i.e. empty pages in my calendar, scared me. Now I wake up smiling and enjoy tuning in and pondering what it is that would make me happy this day. And if it is doing nothing, here I come.

It is still a mystery to me how that letting-go stuff everybody is talking about works, to be honest. Most of the time I have no idea what I am doing. In this case though, I feel confident I do not have to know. I just keep living without my paper calendar and hope I won’t forget anything crucial. But even if I did – at least I go to the gym regularly ;p

Author: carasmelody

daydreamer, hopelessly hopeful, I love the power of words, I love poems, words are soulfood

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