What would you do if you could do anything?
… or rather, if you were fearless?
The first things that come to my mind are fun things. I would travel around the world with my backpack and boyfriend, not a care in the world. Definitely go to a Coldplay concert. Have sex on some ridiculously deserted and magical beach, just because.
The next wave of ideas is more practical. I would move to a flat with a garden so my cats can play outside and I can lounge in the sun. I could reduce my hours so I have more freetime to do what I want and to teach better, more creatively. Furthermore I would certainly drive to my family more often, and see friends from home regularly. And I would find a cure for my mum’s illness, so she and my dad are happy and can enjoy their retirement.
Then, the realisation kicks in… those are all self-related wishes, clearly honest yet egoistic ones. Omg!!! I must find something more philosophical then, altruistic. Here we go!I want to teach kids to believe in themselves and to feel they are good the way they are. I would like to organise courses that make them develop creativity and open their minds. Additionally I’d want kids worldwide to receive an education worth the name (hear the teacher in me?). And I would like to stop wars because, honestly, when has shooting at others ever solved anything? Instead I would like all people to travel more so they are openminded and curious about new cultures, and not afraid of the ones they do not understand. Encouraging international friendships is what I’d do.
Altruistic enough? Now I feel overwhelmed. I am just one person, after all. How could I do all this? And isn’t it somehow… too much? To find out what I would really do, I feel I need to find out what matters to me the most.
I find that once I considered what I’d really like to do that comes from my heart, I felt I had to change my list. So I did.
I desire the freedom to decide what I do with my time. I would like to spend it with the people I love and vice versa. I want to laugh with them. I ache to see parts of the world. I desire to do things that make me forget purpose and dance and just be allowed to be me. I would do everything to make my little world a good place to be in and to belong to, and contribute to creating this world my way. At school. At home. With the people I care about. With people I don’t yet care about, too, come to think of it.
And if everybody created a small world that is good, all small worlds would be, and so the big big world would be… but that thought is too philosophical, isn’t it? 🙂
And this is the most honest answer.