.. or: bursting with energy.
At the moment, I feel like I am dancing through my life.
On three evenings a week, this is actually true – Kizomba, Salsa, Bachata and Waltz. Btw – I did find a solution to the dancing partner problem that had been bothering me for weeks.
I just told him I wanted to dance with others. He did not get it, or want go get it, at first. Has always been good at pretending, I guess. Since the moment I told him, new doors have opened with a BANG! and so I am currently dancing three times a week, each eve with a different guy. I am learning a lot each time, and the ease in my step is back as is the feeling “I can’t wait to go to class today!“ I am happy about this, and I refuse to feel ashamed for being happy. Instead, I am just enjoying it 🙂
Maybe it is this spirit of dancing that I carry with me through my days, I don’t know. Often it feels like I’m floating, even though maybe it should be called gliding, thanks to the snow and ice covering the streets.
I find myself smiling at strangers on the train, chatting with random people in town at the checkout, buying bold shirts I’d not dared to wear some months ago. I feel a spring in my step when I am browsing the stores for a bridesmaid dress, and not even the color scheme can dampen my mood. Lately, I have spent time with new people I got to know at dancing parties or in the gym, and find the conversations are stimulating. Or I just met old friends and shared the easy laughter you can only have with them.Though I am busier with activities, there is no lack of time for my work… though, admittedly, it being January and all students care about is their marks and all I seem to be doing is calculating…! -Honestly, I am a language teacher, have mercy! – there is a lack of motivation. 😉 On the other hand, I was motivated to declutter my flat and reorganize my bookshelf. Anyways, I vibrate with energy and don’t know why or how. Does it matter?
I go to bed happy in the evening, resting my head on my pillow with a smile on my face and at least one cat cuddled close. I wake up still smiling and curious about my day. My head is full of plans and yet it is relaxingly quiet. My heart seems lighter and breathing. And my feet just carry on dancing…