I don’t know about you, but if someone tells me to “let it go”, in me I automatically feel… resistance. Stubbornness. “No way.” – ” Why?” and a kind of resigned feeling that this will be hard.
And thus already this “concept” of letting go has always stressed me out. Puh. I don’t want to start on how the process itself has always made me feel…
Today is the first day that letting go was a topic that gave me peace. I have signed up for Online Yoga Classes with https://yoga-shala-bodensee.de/ yesterday, with a teacher I met first in October during a weekend Yoga retreat in Überlingen. She strikes me as someone totally centered and with a very open heart.
This week’s focus during her yoga classes was “letting go”. Imagine my joyful reaction upon hearing that first thing this sunny Sunday morning. Yay. – However, my experience was totally surprising!!! Not sure because I trust this particular instructor, or if it was just time.. 🙂 Anyways, I would like to share it.
We were invited to lie down/ sit in meditation and see what would come up that we would like to let go – a person, a feeling, a habit,… .
(me: my guilt about living a happy life in Austria far away from my parents/ hometown)
Then, we were asked to let it surface and look at it, really see it (whatever we wanted to let go). No judging allowed.
As a next step, we were encouraged to see the positive side of what we feel we need to let go – and this was new to me. So far, I have always thought of why I would like to let go of something or someone, why I might find it hard, what was still holding me back; or I have envisioned my future without “it” and tried to kind of get myself there. Never have I asked what is positive about what or who I would like to let go…. it made me open my heart, and dissolved something.
And finally, we should ask ourselves if we were ready to let go.
Answer “Yes”: imagine you carefully pack what you want to let go in a package, place it next to you. Important: outside of you = next to you. Practice Yoga. Maybe it will have left when you are done.
Answer “No. Not yet.” Breathe. Accept you are not ready.
To be honest, I was not ready to let my guilt go. For the first time in forever, however, I have seen that there are some positive sides in this “feeling guilty”: I love my parents a lot and want them to be happy; I wish they lived closer and I’d see them more; another is that I love my hometown and my roots and sometimes miss both terribly, as I do the people (family and friends) in my life in Germany.
Not sure if anyone but me can follow, but well, it was my epiphany, after all. 🙂
During Yoga and some Asanas which I found challenging, I noticed where my body would happily go and where it was not ready. And it gave me a strange kind of peace.
Have a great Sunday, everyone!