This is how I feel

or… Three months later … # last # still me

If you ask me
if these days and weeks have changed me
I must say “no”.
If you ask me
if I feel different
I must say “yes”.

I could not tell you how –
rationally –
I can tell you
what it feels like.

I feel like
the vision of what I want
is clearer in my heart, not head;
I feel like
the people I spend time with
really see me;
I feel like
my heart is softer and yet has grown
stronger, too.

I feel like in me
there is a calm lake
next to a colorful garden
under a soft blue sky
and no clouds or rain can
ruffle this beauty.